The first time I remember wanting to be popular was in the 4th grade, in Ms Sukala's class. God, I really, REALLY wanted to be friends with Tricia Lippy. She was so cool and so nice. She was blond, a super athlete, and really smart too. Then one day we started talking, unfortunately I don't remember what it was about - possibly the tween must-read "Are You There God? It's Me, Margaret," and the next thing I know I'm friends with the "It" girl. We were best friends for a couple years and it was wonderful. I got invited to all the slumber parties, and "asked out" by boys. It felt so good. Even after Tricia and I weren't best friends anymore, I still had that cool vibe from being her friend earlier in grade school.
Then I went to high school and the process had to start all over. I only knew a few students from my elementary school, but it didn't take long for me to figure out who I wanted to befriend: Julie Aaron. I knew that she was the girl to go to. She was totally different than Tricia; she was the bouncy cheerleader type, smart but not uber smart, not into sports (except from the sidelines), and funny. OMG she always made me laugh. It didn't take long for me to get into her crowd, and again, I really felt like I belonged there. Life was good.
Over the (ahem) 20 years since high school I've seldom felt that I needed to be a part of a certain crowd. Although I have to laugh, at one point during pharmacy school a friend of mine mentioned something about the "popular group" and I said "Wait, that's not us??" I was shocked. Ok, not really, we were 8-10 years older than most of the other students, but I still had to digest that fact.
Well, here I am at the ripe old age of 38, thinking I'm beyond all that crap and it goes and bites me in the butt. Hard. I want to belong. Here's the best part: it's a virtual group. They would be my cyber friends. Blogger buddies. I don't even know these women and I want to be friends with them. I read their blogs, I hope they read mine, I relate to their blogs like they are talking to me personally. I really want to go to Blog Camp (too stinkin bad it's in Denmark and I'm thinkin Bob will that trip the big heave ho). Sad? Yeah, probably. True? Unfortunately.
Oh well. I guess it's time to have another glass of wine and maybe plan an outing with my tangible friends. Although I want to belong to this awesome cyber group, I can tell you that my crowd of real-life friends are definitely the "In" girls...at least in my eyes.